Monday 31 December 2012

I continue to be grateful...

Dear Lord,

As 2012 closes and the dawn of a new year arise, I want to say thank you. Thank you for once again painting another beautiful picture and for writing another beautiful chapter in my life. Ever since I completely surrendered to follow your lead, You have never failed to show me your presence and your gifts. Thank you.

Thank you for Tim, my handsome husband. He continues to make me a better mum and a better person. He constantly reminds me of looking at what I have rather than how difficult things may be. Thank you for choosing my life partner for me. I could not even begin to imagine journeying through parenthood with someone else.

Thank you for the gift of motherhood. It is the most exhausting, trying, and hardest journey I have ever embarked on but I am grateful that I have the opportunity to rear, care and love two beautiful children. Thank you for Noah and Eliza - my pigeon pair.

Thank you for my family. Thank you that I continue to like, love and enjoy my family. Thank you for keeping my parents healthy. Thank you for their eternal and unconditional love and support for us. Thank you that they still continue to enjoy providing for us - the food, the help, the advice. I am forever grateful that they have not had enough.

Thank you for Tim's family. Thank you for their continuous love and care, despite the distance. Thank you for the beautiful visit that they had with us. Creating memories with Noah and Eliza will always be looked at with a smile on my face.

Thank you for the gift of life of my two uncles who have joined you this year, joining their brother who passed last year. Losing three uncles in two years is a gentle reminder that my own life is precious and short.  Thank you for the memories I have of them.

Thank you for my prayer warriors. Thank you for the gift of very special women who I can always count on to say an extra prayer not only for me, my family and friends. Thank you for always reminding me that I am surrounded my amazing people, despite the distance between us.

Thank you for the gift of technology. Thank you that my family and friends all around the
continue to partake in my life almost immediately and I have the opportunity to be part of theirs.

Thank you for the opportunity of a new beginning. 2013 will see me starting a full time role in a new job. I am very excited with what is ahead. 2013 will also see Eliza starting daycare and my parents actively helping take care of the children.

I pray for your continuous lead.  You know my hearts desires, my worries and faults. Lord, may I always remember to trust in you. May I constantly remember that all that I have, all that I am and all that I am going to be is because of you.

With your help and lead,  Chapter 2013 - bring it on!

With all my love,
Jo 




Saturday 22 December 2012

Christmas corner

To those of you who have been to our home, you will know that our place is fast becoming very "occupied".  Space is a true premium and often times Tim and I  have felt that the walls are caving in, especially with the children's toys and furniture.

Around this time of the year, Tim has always suggested to me about putting up a Christmas tree. I have always found excuses to not bother.  Our first Christmas together in our place,  I was heavily pregnant with Noah. That was in 2009. Christmas 2010 was spent in the UK so no Christmas spirit was needed in our home. 2011, I was once again pregnant. Although, we did manage to put up a microscopic Christmas tree. It was so small that it sat on our window sill.

Once again I was going to forgo filling our home with Christmas decorations. I have always said to Tim that we really do not have the space and that we should just invest in a decent tree when we finally have our house.

However, the spirit of Christmas did not want to evade us.  When I was dropping off some dry cleaning to our local laundromat, Marian, the lady who owns the shop offered a box of Christmas decorations to me. She said keep it or give it to someone else. I immediately took it as I knew that it would at least buy me a couple of hours to keep Noah busy. They have been doing Christmas at daycare for the longest time and I knew that he would be tickled pink to have a rummage through an assortment of decorations.

At the same time, when we were skype-ing with my parents one afternoon, I was reminded that there is a Christmas tree sitting in the cupboard. Mum thought that it was my tree from my days in DC but in fact it was my brother's old Christmas tree. So last Saturday, my parents gave me that tree.

Sunday, Tim was patrolling so I was at home with both children. I decided not to take them out as we were working on Noah's toilet training. We spent the morning putting together our Christmas corner and decorating our very first family Christmas tree.

I have never seen Noah so pleased and so proud.







Christmas is truly a wonderful time of the year, not only for the children but also for someone like me, who has found every excuse to overlook the spirit of Christmas.

Every night, when its dark and the Christmas lights are on, I look at our corner and smile. I never thought that we could have a decent Christmas area amidst the very little space we have.

On that note, a wonderful Christmas Season to everyone. Big love to all.


Saturday 15 December 2012

Rollercoaster Ride

We have all seen ads for fertility companies, for anything pregnancy related, for anything baby related and even toddler related. Most of these ads are created to make us go "awwwww". The innocence of children, skin so soft, their smell so addictive, their tiny finger and toes. Who in their right mind would not want to "buy" what these ads are selling?

If I ever get commissioned to create an ad about children, I think I have my tag line.....

Children? - Get ready for the biggest and fastest rollercoaster ride you will embark on!

The highest will be the biggest highs and the lowest will be the lowest ever you will feel. Some parts will be like a loop-the-loops while other parts are just plain old straight.
 
I actually wanted to write a blog yesterday to share the pride I felt as I knew my little boy was growing up.  N is currently toilet training. We had originally planned to do it over the Christmas holidays but after a successful wee in the toilet on Wednesday afternoon, he decided that undies are the way to go. Hence from Thursday, he was been wearing undies during the day. He has had continuous accidents but we persist. We recognise that his interest in wearing undies is a good thing and that eventually, like most things, it just "clicks". 

Yesterday, my big boy did 2 wees and a poo in the toilet. We were so happy and proud that it erased all feelings of frustration from the accidents.

Add the fact that I took him to get his haircut in the afternoon, which I was dreading as Tim was not going to be with me. However, N surprised the bejezees out of me as for the very first time, there were no tears and no dramas. He listened and followed Ms. Brenda (the baby whisperer of hairdressers) and sat still for the cut and actually seemed to enjoy it.

My heart was full of pride.

Today, my rollercoaster took a big fat dip.

From the moment N woke up, he whinged. Everything was hard. Everything was dramatic. Everything!

Those ads that show children following everything a parent asks them to do - they LIE! Children do not do that. Children want what they want and if they don't get that, they scream. They scream from the top of their lungs. They scream because they know that eventually their screams will drive you insane that you will do anything just to shut them up. I actually had to put N to his room today because I had to show him that I meant what I said. Sigh.

When we were out, N was way too excited to think about going to the toilet. Instead, he had accidents, including a not so pleasant experience that Tim had to endure.

And before we could drive home, the battle continued. Sadly, Tim lost it too.

As if we don't have enough on your hands with N's TTing, we are still battling with E and the bottle. I actually do not blame her whingeing. It must be so confusing to her to have us force her to take formula when the breast is just around the corner, easier and more comforting. However, we continue to persist as I know we are going to pay a higher price if we do not get her used to it before daycare starts.

Today was a hard day.

Today is a day where the biggest marketing soiree than can possibly appeal to parents would be a screaming child, mummy juice (Pepsi Max for me) and lots of potato chips (or Twisties).

Now that's an idea










Friday 7 December 2012

Nerves

I just got a job offer. I was verbally offered the job last Tuesday, after the second interview aka morning tea with the team. However, I thought it was best to wait for  the contract before counting my chickens. I got my letter this morning.

The nerves have started to set.

I will be going back to work full time. I will be going into a new role 5 days a week! I tried looking for part time work but there is nothing out there. Unless you have been with your company where they will let you go part time, getting part time employment is almost a no go zone. I even knocked on the doors of retailers but nothing. No one was interested in me. Not even Mummy's shop - Aldi!

Anyhow, with going full time, it means that both children will be going to daycare - at least 3 days, but more likely 4. My parents have kindly offered to look after the children when they are not in daycare.

Once again, I am going into unchartered territories. Full time work with 2 children. I know it is doable. Plenty of people do it. I am so blessed that I have a very supportive husband who is extremely hands on with the children. To make it work, we need to be organised. We need to work together. We need to work as a team.

So my prayer warriors, thank you very much for your continuous prayers for me. I am very excited about the role so I think that our prayers have been answered.

Now, please lets pray that God continue to lead us - that Noah continue to thrive being at daycare and that Eliza settles in quickly (and starts taking formula soon!!!), that Tim continues to be patient with me and that neither of us die from exhaustion!!!

Friday 30 November 2012

Adventures with N & G

Dear Family and Friends,

My Mum has asked me to take charge of writing her one and only entry for this month. It sounds like my Mum has been preoccupied with looking for work, amongst other things, that she has not been able to share her random thoughts of late.

Anyhow,  I want to dedicate this entry to my Nanny and Grandad - who came to visit Eliza and myself all the way from England. I hope that you enjoy the adventures that I had with them as much as I did creating them.

First of all, let me introduce you to my Nanny and Grandad Philip.



Nanny and Grandad arrived very early on a Monday morning. My Daddy and Eliza picked them up from the airport since my Mummy had a job interview that morning and I was at school that day. It was so special to have them come and pick me up from school that afternoon though.

I missed out on their visit to Whale Beach on Tuesday as I was once again at school. However,  on the Wednesday, I finally got to take N & G to the zoo, as I have been promising them on skype for a very long time.



We had a great time at the zoo. I wanted to show them so much, especially the chimps, my favourites.  It was so good for them to see how much of a monkey I really am!

This is N & G's second visit to the zoo. Luckily, despite having been, they were entertained with new antics from the animals. The chimps were crazy chasing each other, the lions were all awake,  the elephants played in the water. N & G also watched the spectacular bird show which they missed last year and once again enjoyed the seal show.



















Of course, no trip to the zoo with me can end without us riding the zoo car aka Sky Safari.


That same week, I also got to take N & G to my other favourite hang out.... the Manly Sea Life Sanctuary! Oh I had such a great time showing them my favourites - the rock pool, the sharks, penguin and I even got to introduce N & G to my girlfriend, the mermaid!


I have my swimming class on Saturdays and oh how proud I was to be watched my N & G. I swam exceptionally well, with the help of my new found friend Pingu (a penguin that N & G bought for me earlier). Pingu would jump in the water and I would swim after him. After my class, our family drove to Bobbin Head for an explore. We went for a walk and while N & G had an extended walk, I took advantage of their great playground. Thank goodness we were able to borrow Ninong's big car so all 6 of us fit comfortably (well at least for some!).




The following day, we took N & G on our favourite family Sunday outing - Sunday Funday. We caught the ferry from Manly to Circular Quay, then caught the train to Wynyard Station. We could have walked it but because I was so keen on sharing this experience with N & G. I think G was very excited (he LOVES trains!) as he even went up on the top floor to get a better view.



As usual, we went to the Wild Life Park and to the Aquarium. They were both very busy but nonetheless fun. I spent a good part running through the exhibits (so much to see!) and poor N & G were not able to see everything. Of course, our day was capped off by lunch at our favourite food court in Chinatown, were N & G had to decide between so many exotic flavours tempting them.

N & G left for Melbourne very early the following week. Instead of flying to Melbourne, they caught the train - another adventure feather to add to their cap. I heard wonderful stories of their train journey, which I hope I will get to do, one day. N & G also told me about their visit to Gladys, Nanny's relative and last remaining maternal kin, and their visit to the Great Ocean Road, where they were able to see koalas in the wild, as well as the 12 apostles (which are apparently dwindling fast!).





Upon returning back to Sydney, I had many more adventures with N & G. We went to the Hunter Valley where I enjoyed a Babycinno while the adults had proper coffee. Of course, the adults got to wine taste and we took the obligatory photo at Audrey Wilkinson.  We also took N & G to Pottery Brewery - a great pub with really good food and a fantastic atmosphere. I was just happy that it had a playpark and I was allowed to play outside until it was almost dark.










On N & G's last full week with us, they spent a lot of time exploring on their own. I did not mind as I was at school anyway. However, on my Wednesday off, I got to go on a special trip with Daddy and N & G. We took the ferry into the city really early in the morning, then took the train to Central Station to catch the train to Katoomba! We went to see the 3 sisters!!! Now all of us had seen the 3 sisters (well, N & G had to imagine it through the mist last year!) but this was a special trip as none of us had taken the train to Katoomba. The 4hr round trip was very tiring but it was definitely a brilliant adventure!!!

Of course, we needed to find a playpark close to the 3 sisters!




















Plenty more adventures we had. On N & G's last weekend with us, we had my school's Christmas party on the Saturday which was so much fun. Grandad was so lucky that he took home one of the hampers that was raffled off (I sold him his winning ticket!). Then we had Eliza's baptism on the Sunday which was wonderful. Lucky Eliza for having two sets of Grandparents present. It was Eliza's very first party and oh I was so pleased for her. I touched a couple of her presents but did not once get jealous that she was getting plenty of attention!





Nanny and Grandad Philip left to go home last Tuesday. I count myself so lucky that they came over to Sydney to visit Eliza and myself. I count myself even luckier that we created so many memories together while they were here. We did so much together. However, what I will miss the most is just having them around.

Dear Nanny and Grandad - how I miss seeing you in our house. I am still saying Where's Grandad but I know that you are no longer in our house and have gone home to your house in England.

Thank you for all the lovely presents and treats that you gave Eliza and myself. You know how special they are. Thank you for all the cuddles that we received. Thank you for my Hippo book and for constantly reading to me. I hope you did not mind that I had a habit of reading another book while listening to you read.  Thank you for the lovely story about Ned the donkey. Thank you for teaching me the window song.  Thank you for playing music with me and for dancing with me. Thank you for being my audience and for putting up with Wiggles playing all the time. Thank you for just being around!








Eliza and I already miss the both of you.

So family and friends, I hope that you enjoyed my little tribute to my N & G. Now you can probably understand why my Mummy has been in absentia.

No worries, I will tell my Mum to get on with.

Lots of love,

Noey
X








Tuesday 23 October 2012

Sibling L.O.V.E.




Shortly after giving birth to Noah, I found myself getting clucky very quickly. Tim and I had spoken about having more than one child and given that I was in my late 30s and that my Mum menopaused early, we knew that we had to get cracking as soon as we could.

I never thought of planning for my children's age gap. I actually never thought much about it. My brother and I have a 4.5 year gap which was significant when we were young (ie. when I was an angry teen and he was a pesty little kid) but as we grew older, the gap quickly disappeared. It was not long until we were doing things together, had common friends and I counted him to be one of my best friends. Hence, I know that big age gaps effectively does not matter. However, when I was pregnant with Noah, I was exposed to mums wanting to have their children to have a close age gap. Two under Two was the catch phrase. I am not sure if it is because a closer age gap meant automatic playmates/friends for the children or it is to get the sleepless nights over and done with as quickly as possible.

For me, I was just desperate to try and give Noah a sibling.

Noah and Eliza have a 25 month gap. We are not within the Two under Two threshold but close enough.

In the short span of 6 months, I can already see how much they adore each other. Noah is generous with his kisses and cuddles to his little sister, at times, a little bit overzealous. Tim and I are trying to find the balance between encouraging him with his affection and trying to stop him from trampling on her, which unfortunately he already has.





One time, Tim caught Noah riding on Eliza during her tummy time. No photos for evidence which is just as well. Tim was probably too busy rescuing Eliza from her brother!

Luckily, Noah loves playing with Eliza. He often keeps her company when she is doing her floor exercises. Tim, Noah and Eliza have recently developed a habit of going out to the lounge first thing in the morning, leaving me to sleep in a bit (Yey!) so that Noah and Eliza can do their exercises together!








When Eliza starts to fuss, Noah often tells me what Eliza might need. "Milk Mummy for Eliza" or "Put Eliza to bed Mummy".  More often that not, he is right as to what she needs.

Eliza, in turn adores her kuya (older brother). She watches him with such warmth and delight in her eyes. You can tell that Eliza is watching and learning from Noah, absorbing and just itching to play with him. Occasionally she will also have a chat to him which never fails to melt my heart.



N & E, I hope that you will never stop adoring each other. I know that you will grow up driving each other insane, but I hope at the end of the day, you will continue to love and like each other.

If not, I will forever remind you of these moments...







Mummy loves you both very much X